Saturday, January 23, 2010
July 4, 1990 - age 17
My graduation party was so strange. I made $445. Joseph [high school boyfriend] came to my party. It was in a restaurant, then we had people over the house afterward. It rained so going in the pool was an impossibility.
I failed my 2nd Road Test. I really think I'm never going to pass. I'm too nervous. I took it twice in Freeport. It's so easy there. All you do is make two lefts and park, but I just can't make the left turn. I'm sick of failing it. I wish I could have someone take it for me!! [Wow, what a great idea, I should have thought of this back then!]
Eric invited me to go to the beach with him today. I wish I had gone, but I have a feeling it was like a 4th of July party or something and I didn't want to swim anyway. I hate when my brothers friends come over and I'm home alone like a loser. Dad's friends are here too.
I just called Joseph at work. I'm so hungry dieting. I'm so lonely. I must be the only person sitting in my room on the 4th of July. I should have gone to the beach with Eric.
It's so weird. I can remember feeling that way back then. I sometimes still feel this way. My husband will tell me we have a party coming up. I do everything I can to get out of it. I don't want to go. I don't want to socialize. I get there and I usually have a good time. Right now I'm down in the dumps. Being unemployed gives me very little to chat about. Twenty years later though,and I still have that torn between hiding out in my room or going to do something fun.
It's funny to compare that entry with this one sixth and seventh grade where I'm lovin' parties and hanging out...
Sunday, October 7, 1984 age 11
Today we went apple picking at Grandma's in New Jersey. Tomorrow we (the whole class) are all meeting each other at Hot Skates. I can't wait!
Wednesday, January 16, 1985 - age 12
Today was great! Serena had her party and I made out with Eddie in the closet. We played this game and he said I kissed the best. Woo hoo!
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