Saturday, January 23, 2010

More Diary Entries

July 4, 1990 - age 17

My graduation party was so strange. I made $445. Joseph [high school boyfriend] came to my party. It was in a restaurant, then we had people over the house afterward. It rained so going in the pool was an impossibility. 

I failed my 2nd Road Test. I really think I'm never going to pass. I'm too nervous. I took it twice in Freeport. It's so easy there. All you do is make two lefts and park, but I just can't make the left turn. I'm sick of failing it. I wish I could have someone take it for me!! [Wow, what a great idea, I should have thought of this back then!]

Eric invited me to go to the beach with him today. I wish I had gone, but I have a feeling it was like a 4th of July party or something and I didn't want to swim anyway. I hate when my brothers friends come over and I'm home alone like a loser. Dad's friends are here too. 

I just called Joseph at work. I'm so hungry dieting. I'm so lonely. I must be the only person sitting in my room on the 4th of July.  I should have gone to the beach with Eric.

It's so weird. I can remember feeling that way back then. I sometimes still feel this way. My husband will tell me we have a party coming up. I do everything I can to get out of it. I don't want to go. I don't want to socialize. I get there and I usually have a good time. Right now I'm down in the dumps. Being unemployed gives me very little to chat about. Twenty years later though,and I still have that torn between hiding out in my room or going to do something fun.

It's funny to compare that entry with this one sixth and seventh grade where I'm lovin' parties and hanging out...

Sunday, October 7, 1984  age 11

Today we went apple picking at Grandma's in New Jersey. Tomorrow we (the whole class) are all meeting each other at Hot Skates. I can't wait!

Wednesday, January 16, 1985 - age 12
Today was great! Serena had her party and I made out with Eddie in the closet. We played this game and he said I kissed the best. Woo hoo! 


Anonymous said...

Oh cute! I am going to ask my husband to meet me in the closet!

We'll see if he gets it!

Katrina said...

I would love to find the box with my old journals. I can only imagine the things I wrote. I found a note I wrote to a friend in middle school and it was hilarious how many times I wrote "write back!"

Glad I found your blog through Friday Follow. :)

Ally said...

@Girl - that's too funny! Let me know if it works :)
@Yes, we always had to write things like WB or WBS!

Pineapple Princess said...

Following from Follow Friday.
Love your blog. The Jason Bateman post was funny!

Pandorah's Box said...

I think everyone feels this way at different points in their lives. At least, I do. It's good that you are writing about it because someone else might be feeling the same way and your words are helping them through it.

I love you blast from the past journal entries! Really makes me wish I had kept my own journals!

Great post!

Pam said...

I graduated from high school in 1990 too. When I was in the 8th grade my bff got me a journal for my birthday. I think the last entry I wrote in it was sometime in the early 90's. Sometimes, when my sisters and I get together we read parts of it aloud. I'm in my thirtes and I have to hide it from my children because theres just things I don't want them to ever know about their mother. There's a couple pages that have been ripped out. I guess theres parts I don't want to remember either. Lol.
Have a great weekend!c

Betty said...

I feel that way too sometimes. Just seems like too much work being a social butterfly. When I was a kid I really didn't like to go to birthday parties, but back then we had to dress up in our Sunday clothes and I hated dressing up! Still do.

v said...

Party! Sometimes I like it, sometimes I don't. I think it's normal.
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Melissa B. said...

We received a shoebox a couple of months ago from Mr. Fairway's brother. Turns out it contained "love" letters I sent the future Hubz, when I was a mere funny looking back at that "other" me!

Natalie A. said...

I'm visiting from Friday Follow really late! Please come follow my blog! I'm following yours now! Have a great night!

Natalie A. said...

Thanks for following and entering the giveaway! Do you think you could go back and leave a comment for each thing you did like Facebook Fan me, Fairytale, and everything else so I can count them all? Thanks so much! Good luck!


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